For Budget.

I wonder if he knew he’d become such a big part of my past, when he spoke of our future
I wonder when he thought I was crazy if he knew it were true
I wonder if I realised how deeply I would allow him in
My mind wonders if anything at all was ever true

I hope that he knew I loved him
I hope that I can learn to love again
I hope that one day in the not too distant future,
I will allow another person to come in

I’m scared none of this will ever be set right
I’m scared I’ll never know
I’m scared that when I’m older I’ll forget
What happens if I never let it show?

I wish he was still around
I wish that I could let him say his say
I wish I had been warned before
So my heart would never bleed this way